For the longest time I have had this vision. I am looking over a ledge into nothingness. The nothingness is the color of the Colorado sky on a cloudless summer day – crystal clear blue. The ledge is red rock – like in Sedona, where the earth and rock are deep red due to the presence of hematite. I peer over into the blue nothingness and I take breath after breath. I am either grounding myself, preparing for something or swallowing fear. I know that I need to jump.
I can stand safely on the ledge, knowing that the ground is solid underneath my feet and will hold me safely for eternity – or, I can jump into the blue abyss, and trust that somewhere along the way down something will catch me. Of course this vision is a metaphor describing the crossroads that I am on. Stay in my current job, home and lifestyle and know that I will always be provided for and taken care of – or, take a leap of faith and leave everything that I know for a chance.
It’s a lonely ledge. I stood on top of it for almost three years. But the fear of never experiencing the free fall eventually overcame the fear of leaping. And now I am falling. But the surprising thing is that the jump creates wings, and now they are starting to fly.